It's too late, you are too late, no matter what you say now, it's not important.
Don't tell me you regretted, because I don't care, I had never care! Get it?
I endured and live through that time, I'll never walk that path again, I mean it.

Hello! I'm blogging again. Hahas! :D 10 more days to Japan, 19 more days to Christmas! :D
Hahas! I bet Christmas will be damn nice in Japan. I'm gonna spend Christmas eve in Tokyo :P
Every year when Christmas comes, I'll think, another year ended. I'll think that I have to go
through many things to experience another Christmas, but again, Christmas came again. Hahas.

I love that super hyper feeling during Christmas, I'm crazy perhaps. Ahh!

Anyways, yesterday night or should I say the beginning of today :P I went to watch 海派甜心.
It's damn nice leh. Xiao zhu's damn cute luh. HAHA! Watched till Episode 3 le. Shall continue
later. Hehes. Addictive, but sometimes irritating leh the show :P Hahas. Weird luh. I forgot about
continuing to watch You're Beautiful siah. Taekyung and Jeremy too shuai and cute. Can't
bear to watch. HAHA! I'm gonna watch soon. Stucked at Episode 7. Hehs. After 海派甜心 then
continue watching bah. 3 more episodes of 海派甜心 den need to wait again. Hahahas :P

I'm finding those old songs nice again. Hahas. You should listen to them once in a while ;P It gets
nicer. Hehes. Everybody's almost listening to the latest song. Ahh. Some forgotten those songs
that used to be nice in the past. Okay, what nonsense am I talking about? LOL!! I'm crazy.

I updated my Tumblr and Twitter today. I'm gonna quit Plurk when my Karma reaches 100 :D

Hahas. I realize my life is getting too weird now. Thou it seems normal, but it's weird too.
Sometimes I think, getting too curious isn't good. I'm fine with my life now, so, I shall stop it.
Rawrs! Now I guess I'm really hating one type of people, I hate that type a lot, super a lot. Rawr.

I should stop blogging before I start saying things I'm pissed off about. Goodbye :D

Christmas is coming, let's wait for santa, because santa's coming to town.

Hello! My first december post of the year. Hehes. 2009 is ending already, the next year is
coming. Hehes. Christmas is coming. I have a very long list of the things I want to buy. But you
know, that's not really the wish I want. Hehes. I'm not gonna post my Christmas Wishlist, it's too
long. Ssomeone buy me a Polaroid please~ It's like so vintage and I want it for a long time
already. Somebody find it and buy for me the nicest and coolest Polaroid on Earth. Hahahas :X

Shall talk about something funny first. I was like talking to Tse Shing on msn about HowL, and
she tell me she's not eating HowL, she's eating crispy chicken. LOL! Crazy luh. HowL is a singer.

Andand, I'm starting to think After School and Brown Eyed Girls are not bad. Hehes. BEG is
coming to Singapore for an autograph session too. But too bad, not crazy over them. Hahahas.
I like After School - Because of you. Go find it on youtube and listen to it yourself if you
want. Hehes. F.T Island's coming to Singapore too. Damn it, I wanna see HongKi, but I'm lazy.
I went to update myself a little on Kpop again cause I'm too bored. Rawrs. But I'm suppose to
pack my room! Packing it for 2 days already. Failed AGAIN. But I'm gonna succeed. 40% done.

Got lots of things to do, pack, sort out. Rawrs! Gonna go trim my hair tomorrow too :D Hahas.

Christmas is coming, 22 more days to Christmas!

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Christmas is coming, I hope there's sales. LOL! Time to do some Christmas shopping :P
I want to go to Japan and do Christmas shopping for myself. Hehes. Shall buy stuff if I'm happy
for my friends or if I have the money =.= I really think this post is getting to be a little
nonsensical. Anyways, 12 more days till I'm going to Japan. Hahahas. Be back on Christmas Day.

Okayokay, shall post something interesting. Me and Koko thinks this guy from UKISS face is
funny! She laughed like mad and it's hitting my nerves you know? Rawrs! Funny like hell! :P



Got one picture more funny but dunwan post. So unglam XD His name is Alexandra Lee. LOL!

If you don't find this funny then go watch videos of him. Hehes.

I'm going to enjoy life after my room is being packed finish @_@ Hehes.

Today, I suddenly missed an old friend a lot siah. But he and me drifted apart already T_T

And there's this Christmas wish too, I want DBSK to not disband and patch back yeah XD

Okay, Christmas is coming so get into the Christmas spirit and make me happy. Hehes <3

Shall stop blogging already. Nothing to blog and can't think of things for the moment. Goodbye :D

Life isn't meaningful if you can't always do what you want,
cause life is about being happy, and that ain't happiness.

Hello! I'm blogging again. Hahas. It's gonna be december tomorrow. 1 more month to school
reopen. Hehes. A month passed so quickly. I'm gonna love december a lot. Hehes. January ain't
that bad too. But I will love december more. I haven't done the stupid holiday homework too.

Anyways, I haven't been watching You're Beautiful lately. The last episode came out already.
Anyways, I can take my time watching it, it won't run away. Hahas. Haven't been watching
anime too. Only reading manga these days. Taiwan Dramas on hiatus too. Watching HK drama
lately. Hehes. Playing my PSP~ Rotting at home~ Going out to slack~ That's what I have been
doing this holiday. Hehes. I just want to do whatever I want for god's sake. Rawrs!

I hope next year don't come so soon. Streaming and all that, I'm gonna die. Hehes. I think I'm
going to stop rotting. Shall go do everything I need to do~ Hahas. I got lots of things I want to do.

Anyways, I can't wait for La Corda D'oro 3 to come out on PSP :D Final Fantasy XIII on
PS3. But too bad I don't have a PS3~ But I will find some ways to play it :X I have my ways :D

Plurking and Tweeting more often these days o.o There's nothing to blog lately. Mostly
nonsense. Hahas. 16 more days and I'm going to Japan. Hehes :D

Please click of the nuffnang advertisement if you see one on my blog. Hahas. Thanks :D

Don't know what to blog anymore. Hehes. Tag btw. Hahas (:

Tags Replys:

Felicia ; Hahas. Okay. You lazy pig :X Hahas. Be jealous XD

Huixin :} ; Hey. LOL! you damn funny leh. Not sad ler lah :D

WaNXiN(: ; Hello! Thanks for tagging :D Never cry le. Hehes :X

Heidi ; HI LESSIE! -waves- -slaps back- DO THE QUIZ I DONT CARE :X

S.r :] ; Thanks for tagging you fast pig.

koko'hae ; Rawrs. Shim Changmin's more adorable :( I love you too :D

'blah blah' ; LOL! Hi.

♥./PearlynT ; Hahas. Not emo liao :X Thanks for tagging~

You know what I really want? I just want to be happy and do what I really want to.

Hello :D Hahas. Don't know what to blog about. It's 1:48am and I'm just starting to write this
sentence. Hehes. 2 Hours after I opened this page I think? Hahas. This few days did nothing luh.
Thursday went out with Kyna and Pearlyn. Hahas. Lazy to talk about the day. But v.fun (:

Today bought a camera at IT Fair :D It's Pink. Damn chio can. Touch screen one :D Hahas.
Anyways, I'm like so hyper just now. But now, I don't know if I'm happy or sad or what. Argh!

I don't know what to do with life now, I'm so confuse. I would have died without my friends.
I miss koko so much, but she's offline. Shall talk to her tomorrow then :( Bad mood now. Argh.
I wonder why happiness doesn't always comes to me. It's always happy for awhile, and soon it
be all gone. I really wish, things would go back to the past. I don't mind even if it's 5 years ago.
I don't mind if I'm going to experience the worse and bad year which is 2005 again. I just wanna
go back to the past. At least I was happy back then. Somehow, I feel weird about what happened.

During 2005, it's my bad temper that brought all my good friends to me. Hahas.

Anyways, I'm glad that I know who my true friends are this year. Although this year sucks alot,
at least I know who the hell always backstabs me, again and again. Argh!

Maybe I should stop all my unhappiness, and be happy once again.
Maybe what everybody is saying is right, being happy is the most important thing.
Thou thinking of my memory is painful, but I had already endured lots of them.
Enduring it once more wouldn't hurt would it? I hope so that pain would go off sooner.

Maybe if dying is a solution, then let me die, I don't mind.

I feel like crying so badly, but why can't my tears come out? It's torturing me.

Hello. I'm blogging. All my posts these days no pics. Too bad, no mood. Hahas It makes my post
look sibei sian. Nvm luh. Hahas. Read or not up to you, the person who's reading this post. Hahs..

This few days very no mood. Especially today. Hahas. Morning still got something I hate a lot
happen. That's a nightmare that couldn't be chased away.. Okay, don't want talk about it lerhs.

I now don't know want to be happy or sad? But I guess both also not. No mood. Hahas..

It's 1:27am and guess what? I finally cried like FCK! I haven't cried like that for so long, it has
been a long time since I cried like it's overflooding. Okay, my mind can't think now, Goodnight
people. I'm gonna continue crying. I'm so happy? I give up and yeah, Farewell :D

I shall just be heartless, once and for all. bye.

Sorry, but I love you, I just can't stop loving you.

Hello. Blogging again O-O Actually just doing something to keep me from boredom.
Bleahs! Today's boring la. Aiya, don't want blog so much. See my Plurk and Twitter can
already. I'm seriously lazy you know, Rawrs! What a stupid day btw. Having headache still
now. My mood today quite good, but still not good. Dunno how to say :P Today all the humans on
this Earth seems to suddenly be so kind. Hahas. Wednesday onwards I won't be bored already.

I love the people who are kind to me today. Hahas. I hate those who are unkind to me. Rawrs.
I have some kind of a sleeping problem these days too. Keep sleeping suddenly. Weird right? :X
Ytd night slept for 4hours only. Or should I say today morning. Hahas! Gonna stop blogging (:
Been blogging damn less this 2 months. Maybe should start blogging often again. Haha.

Another boring post, sorry about that. Hehes :D

Tagged by Chloe Tay the Ghey :D Copied and pasted the whole thing. LOL!

10 to go.

1. Are you single: Nope.
2. Are you happy: Nope.
3. Are you bored: Duh?
4. Are you fair: Dunno.
5. Are you indian: No.
6. Are you stupid: Yes :D
7. Are you honest: Sortof :D
8. Are you irish: No.
9. Are you nice: Duh?
10. Are you asian: Yeah.

Ten Facts.

Full name: Vanessa.
Nickname: Alot? :X
Birthplace: Singapore.
Hair colour: Idk? Not entirely black.
Hair style: Idk? :D
Eye color: Idk? Not entirely black =.=ll
DOB: 13th January.
Mood: Below average.
Favourite colour: Don't have one.
One place you wished to visit: Idk.

Ten facts about your love.

1. Been in love: Yea.
2. Believe love in first sight: Not anymore.
3. Currently have a crush: Yea?
4. Hurt emotionally before: Yea.
5. Broken someone's heart: Yea.
6. Have your heart broken: Yea.
7. Like someone but kept in heart: Yea.
8. Are you afraid of commitment: No.
9. Last person you hugged: 'Blah' :X
10. Last person you said ILYs: Dunno :D

This or That.

Love or lust: Love. :D
Cats or dogs: Dogs.
Best friends or regular friends: Best friends.
Creamy or crunchy: Crunchy.
Pencil or Pen: Pen.
Wild night out or romantic in: Wild night out.
Money or happiness: Happiness.
Night or day: Night.
IM or phone: Phone.

Have you ever.

Been caught sneaking out: Yea.
Seen a polar bear: Yea.
Done smth you regret: Yea.
Jumpin: Huh?
Eat food that fell on the floor: Yea :X
Eat an entire Jaw breaker: Huh?
Been caught naked: No.
Wanted boyfriend back: Yea.
Cried because lost a person forever: Yea.
Wanted to disappear: Yea.

Preference in love.

Smile or eyes: Eyes :D
Light or dark hair: Dark.
Hugs or kiss: Hugs.
Shorter or taller: Taller.
Intelligence or attraction: Attraction.
Violent or pathetic: Neither.
Older or younger: Older.
Outgoing or quiet: Outgoing.
Sweet or bad: Sweet.

Have you.

Performed in a large crowd: Yea.
Talk on the phone longer then an hour: Yea.
A rock concert: Yea.
Cheerleading team: No.
Dance team: Yea?
Sports team: Sortof?
Drama play or production: Drama play?
Owned rich cars: No?
In a rap video: No.

Last.

Last call you made: Myself. LOL! Finding where's my phone.
Hugged: 'Blah' :X
Hung out: Slackers group.
Work: -
Talked to: Myself. Jk :X
You IM'd: Shinrong and Victor.
Texted: Kyna.
Movie: My girlfriend is an agent.
Last person or thing you miss: 'Blah' :X

Tag 20 people to do this quiz:

1. JaniceTan.
2. Tharshini
3. Ivana Chan
4. Tse Shing.
5. Felicia.
6. Kyna
7. QiaoBin.
8. Shinrong.
9. Pearlyn.
10. Meiyen
11. Murni
12. Siewshuan.
13. CharmaineOh.
14. Murphi.
15. Rachel.
16. Ellen.
17. Senyao.
18. Florence
19. Huixin.
20. Kokhow.

Bang! I anyhow tagged. Don't have to do it la. Boredom only ><

650th Post. This post's going to suck a lot. Sorry about it.

Hello. This post is going to be damn plain. I have no mood to blog anyways. I'm just going to
rant? Rawrs. Anyway, about today, it's boring la. Afternoon go eat Sakae Sushi for lunch with
sister. Went home and slacked for nothing after that with friends and went home after that again
and then went out again to meet Fel. Hahas. Sorry for making you wait so long lehs :X But you so
early, not my fault also. Hehes! After that at night went downstairs awhile do something. That's
my day? The rest spend it no mood and so on. Rawrs. I already v.bad mood for super long. Now
suddenly all explode together, that's why it's super bad mood. I don't think it will get any
better. Perhaps better tomorrow morning. Argh! Sucks man. I don't think I'm going AFA alrd.

Nobody to go with and I got no money currently la. I wonder why I have such nice and
also irritating friends. Somebody donate me money. Rawrs! Anyways, stop ruining my mood
please. I beg myself too. Anyway, everybody seems busy these days too. Whatever luh. Sobs.

Making things worse, just now say a black bird dead body and eyes open big staring at me at
the carpark. I thought it wasn't dead and got scared. But realized it's dead and got even more
scared! Gosh, I'm getting more like JaniceTan. Whatever. Anyways, it's freaking eerie la. Lols.

I think that's all I'm blogging normally about. Hahas? Phone reset tomorrow. Anyway, I got
unlimited smses already so I just need the free 100min calling. Bleahs. Phone bill coming, not
looking forward to it. Scared burst lehs. Whatever la. I hope it doesnt, I use internet somemore!


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I wonder how many people can understand me that well. I wonder why, I really wonder.
I really wonder why the person I want to understand me the most doesn't understand at all.
It's driving me crazy, I've hidden so many things to myself, it's exploding, it has exploded.

I'm so pissed off and angry, and the same time I feel so pathetic, very pathetic, who cares anyw?
I'm irritating, I know. That's why I'm not gonna tell people how pathetic and pissed off I am.
I know I sucks a lot, but at least I try to be better, I tried and I succeeded. My past is gone.

My past, I'm not gonna say it anymore, I know I've hidden many things, but maybe it's right.
The past is the past, I'm not going to brood over it anymore, but sometimes, I can't help it really.
But anyway, I swear not to think about it anymore, cause 2005-2007 is gone forever anyways.

Please tell me everything that's happening now ain't true too. I beg someone, tell me that please.
I wish it's all a dream. I dream of lots of things the past few nights, they seems bad really.
I don't know why, but it's rare that I can't remember the dreams at all, only part of it, argh.

I hate my past a lot, so many betrayers, so many bad influence, so many weird things happening.
I'm so reckless last time, I'm so impatient, I'm more straightforward, can you imagine?
I offend so many people now already. But I'm glad, I'm not what I used to be, I'm very glad.

But, things are weird now too. But at least it's not that type of life anymore. Argh.

I'm sorry to someone, what I promised you years ago, I will keep it,I swear I would.

I just want all of these things to end now. I want to be happy.

I only want one person to give me true happiness, maybe it's impossible forever. I guess so.
I guess my friends could give me more happiness, but I rather that one person give me it.
I want that one person to understand me the most, but too bad he's not the one yet.

My mood is super bad now, try pissing me off and I swear I'll give you my freaking attitude.
I don't care who you are, as long as you piss me off, dream on making me forgive you again.

I'm really so tired now, not that type of tired, but mentally tired.

Sorry if I caused anyone trouble for being ANGRY & PISSED OFF & TIRED & PATHETIC.
I didn't mean to and you can just scram the hell off and don't talk to me, I didn't ask you to ok?

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I'm done ranting. Hahas. Don't read it luh, will spoil your mood, really. Hahas. I just wanna rant.

Thank you shinrong senior for cheering me up and get well soon too. And stupid victor for
showing me a funny video suddenly out of the blue, mad! Kyna is funny too, 'crabbing' the whole
day away. Pigg! Where's that JaniceTanYuJin btw, rawrs, she says she's gonna online, where
the hell she went? My mood is getting better, but it's not. Argh. Forget it, I shall stop posting or
else I'll get pissed off. Rawrs! Blahblahblah. Goodbye luh. I don't think will be posting any soon
uh? Maybe :D Hahas. Get well soon all the sick people, Kyna so long one somemore :X

Aiya! Farewell.